Seeing Kylee on Skype!

After a year of not actually seeing Kylee in person, today I finally got to see her beautiful little face on Skype! Technology is amazing! She is already talking and doing so much! During our conversation she waved to me, blew me kisses, said "Hi Breonna", told me about how she feeds giraffes at the zoo, told me she grew in my tummy (Her Adoptive Mom said, "You grew in Breonna's _____" and she said tummy), she colored me a picture over skype, spoke spanish (she said "hola"), threw a mini temper tantrum, went potty on the toilet and told me about it (while running around pantless and adorable), played a cute little game where you match pics of animals to their shadow on their iPad and got them ALL right, showed me her favorite stuffed animals and giggled as her Adoptive Dad tickled her and gave her kisses. It was INCREDIBLE! And the best part is... I get to see her IN PERSON in a few weeks!!! I am SO excited! Today has been amazing! I love Kylee and her Adoptive Parents more than I can put into words! They have given me the most precious gift I could have, a relationship with my beautiful, intelligent, funny, sweet little princess Kylee. <3

Too Long! Update! :D

Ok, so it has clearly been TOO LONG since I have posted anything on this blog! Obviously, a great deal has happened since I have updated ya'll last... Where to begin? Kylee is now TWO years old! They grow so fast! She is doing amazing and is living in Mexico with her adoptive family. Her Adoptive Dad is going to Medical school in Guadalajara and she will still be there for a few more years. It has been hard not to see her, but thank goodness her Adoptive Mom is so good at keeping up a blog about her life (unlike me ;) ). I am looking forward to seeing her around the Holidays though! Her Adoptive family comes up twice a year, but we missed each other the last time they came up so I am so thrilled that I will get to see her within a couple months! I miss her like you would not believe! She is already learning a little Spanish and I am very excited that she will be bilingual. It will help her so much later in life! As always, the process of Adoption is up-and-down. Some days are still quite hard, but the good days seem to outweigh the bad and I NEVER regret my decision to place Kylee with her Family. I know that is where she was meant to be! Adoption is such a beautiful experience and I so wish that people could understand what a miracle it is! I have come to see how many misconceptions are out there and it makes me sad. It makes me sad that people don't know how amazing those brave Birth Mothers are and what a sacrifice they have made (I love you girls <3). It makes me sad that people have misconceptions about WHO Birth Mothers are and WHY they made the hardest decision a Mother could ever make. It makes me sad that people don't know more about open adoptions and about what adoption really is these days. So, if you read this and you don't know, get educated! Go to a conference, talk to a Birth Mother or an Adoptive Family! Get the word out that adoption is incredible! I know I will! Ok, here are some new pics of my Lil' Princess <3

 

Kylee with her cousin Nixon

Cute Face :)

My FAVE Pic

Tippy Toes

Clapping

The whole Family

Being chased by Dad

She has enjoyed sticking her tongue out since birth, lol.

Happy with Mom

The new puppy "Hallux"

Time for a swim!

Blowing bubbles in her Princess dress <3

Life sized pinata

Having fun

She tried to paint her own nails, Haha :) Love it!

I LOVE her cute little laugh in this pic

Family Pic

Brief...

I got to see Kylee a little over a week ago and it was amazing! I plan on writing more about it ASAP. In the mean time, Kylees Adoptive Mom posted tons of new pics from January and February on her blog and she is so cute! Go look!

Pics and little updates

Hi all! Kylee is doing great and I am very excited because I am seeing her next week! It has been over two months and I miss her TONS! She is doing so many new things! Eating, sitting up, rolling over and growling, lol. Apparently she has gotten big enough that when left alone for only moments she is able to get from one side of the room to the other (by rolling) and begin pulling things from drawers. She does not like prunes (of which her adoptive dad can attest-due to the mass amount of puke he got on his shirt after feeding her) and she loves exploring. I am so excited to see all the new changes. on another note, I have been asked by several people to update some pics and these ones show a lot of her new talents. Also, if you want to see updated pics on a regular basis, visit her blog at followingkylee.blogspot.com (I stole these from there, lol) I will update as soon as I see my little Princess!

New pics and new changes!

I have not seen Kylee since before Christmas, but her adoptive mom just placed the cutest pics up of her! She has learned how to roll over from her back to her tummy and she can even sit up for almost a min. before falling over! She is getting so big! I have been missing her a lot lately, but I hold firm to the belief that this is what was meant to be. On a lighter note, I just started going back to school on Tuesday, it's great! I'll write again as soon as I have more news!

Seeing Kylee!

I got to see Kylee a couple weeks ago and it was so wonderful! She has grown so much and is now belly laughing and cooing a lot. She just started eating rice cereal and is also learning how to hold her own bottle. I cannot belive how quickly she is becoming a little lady!
I got to go Christmas shopping at the mall with Kylee and her and her adoptive parents. It was so much fun! We took her to the baby stores and put little jackets and shoes on her and we all had a great time (She seemed to like it too 'cause she smiled and talked a lot :D).
Later that night her adoptive Mom brought her to my adoption support group and everyone got to see her. It was so wonderful. I don't think she will ever know how much that meant to me. It's hard not being able to show her off to people like a normal mom would do. But for just one night I was able to feel that honor in regards to this beautiful little girl. I know she is no longer mine, I am just grateful to her Mom for the ways she has blessed my life and kept Kylee a part of it. I could not have asked for a better adoptive Mother.
I still have days that are really hard, but I am so happy that Kylee is doing so well! She is becoming such a beautiful girl (and I have to say, she is totally the most stylish baby in town. :D). This experience has taught me so much and I will be eternally grateful! Thank you to all those who have been involved! I will update again soon! :)

Catching Up

Time to catch up... I have not seen Kylee in the last month or so, but she is doing well. She is getting bigger everyday and I can't believe how grown up she looks! I found out that she got to stay up in Snowflake for about a week and she even got snowed in for about a day! I would love to see her all bundled up and playing in the snow. I hope sometime I can build a snowman with her when she is a little older. I am anticipating seeing her sometime in the next week or so and I am really excited. In the mean time, I am babysitting today. It is great to have a baby to play with, but I will always miss my little Princess. But things are as they should be and I am doing well. I just got signed up for school and I cannot wait to jump back into learning! I will write again as soon as I see Kylee! :D

Getting big!

I just got off of Kylee's blog and cannot believe how big she is getting! She is so grown up! It's hard to believe that she is already three months old. This was her first Halloween and I hear she had a lot of fun. I wanted so bad to see her and dress her up, but she made a super cute Kitty. As more time passes I thought I would start to feel better, but to be honest I almost miss her more. I see the ways she is growing and changing and I want so badly to be a part of that. Thankfully, I still am to an extent. I have felt so much love and appreciation from her adoptive family that I have ZERO complaints. I am just sad because I miss her so much. She is becoming everything I hoped she would and more. And I still have NO regrets, just moments where I wish I could hold her in my arms again and call her my little girl. But she'll always be my little princess either way, even if she is someone else's little girl. On a brighter note, I get to see her soon. I am not sure what day, but I think it will be this week. I can't wait to pick her up and give her a big kiss. I bet she will look so much bigger than the last time I saw her. Her face is already changing and becoming less baby like and more grown up. What an exciting time!

Laughing, sleeping and ear piercing!!!

So much has happened in the last couple weeks! Kylee is growing and changing so quickly! I had the opportunity to see her on Friday and she is so big! It was incredible seeing her and all the ways she has progressed. The best part of the whole visit was the beginning. Her adoptive mom brought her in, walked around and set her down in front of me. As soon as she looked up at me she would not stop smiling. It made my week! Also, before we left I took her for a walk. She is so attentive now! She listens to everything. It is so cute.
Since Friday, I have been told that she laughed for the first time AND slept through the night twice! She giggled once in her dreams while she was still with me, but I cannot imagine what it would be like to hear her precious little laugh!
Lastly, I found out that yesterday she got her ears pierced! I saw a picture and she is so adorable. I was nervous when I found out, but I hear that she did really good. She is so brave.
I am so excited that she is doing so well. She is so smart! I am blessed to still be involved in her life.
There are days that are so hard, but as I see her do so well and progress so much I feel peace and gratitude that I have never experienced. It makes my day when I get to see pictures of Kylee and when I hear about the amazing new things she is doing. Adoption is truly a process, but it is an incredible one.

Missing you...

Today has been an average day, but I do find myself really missing Kylee. I cannot wait until I have the oppertunity to see her next (I think it is going to be this week)! Life is so much different without a little baby in my house. I miss her cries and sounds. All the things that go along with motherhood. I saw a little girl riding on the back of her Dad's bike today and I imagined what it would be like if I could do that. I hope I will be able to someday. Either way, Kylee is amazing and I am blessed to be able to have her in my life. :)

Beautiful feet

This is a picture of Kylee's adorable little foot. She is so perfect and beautiful. I got to see her on Wednesday and it was amazing. At one point she stared me directly in the eyes. I felt such a close and powerful connection with her. I know that she knows who I am and that I love her. I am so grateful that she is in such a wonderful place. Although, I do have to say, I miss those little feet (and everything else). But I am so excited to see how well she is settling into her new life. It's as if she was there all along. I know I made the right decision and that gives me a peace that I never thought I could have. It is still hard though. I have been attempting to stay busy so I would not dwell on things. It has helped a little. I am looking for a job and school. And I am still on the hunt. So, if anyone hears anything about a good job, let me know!!!

Today is the day!

That is my new motto for life! Today is the day! I am beginning a new adventure and learning a great deal along the way. In July I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, Kylee. She is the most wonderful thing that has EVER happened to me. She was 7 pounds 5.1 ounces and 19" long. She is just perfect. And because she is so wonderful, she deserves the best life a little girl can have. That is why my husband Ryan and I placed her for adoption. She is with a fabulous family that adores her. Her new Mom is amazing and I feel like she is the only person that could have ever taken my place. She is so good with Kylee and so kind to me. I hope we can continue to develop a strong friendship as time goes on. Her Dad is also incredible. He is so gentle and I can tell Kylee is totally going to be a Daddy's girl! Also, her new extended family is great! I had the chance to meet her new Grandmas and one Grandpa and they are beautiful people. I felt so welcome and warm being invited into their homes. My mom, the Adoptive mom, her mom, her husband's mom, Kylee and I all went out for ice cream and had a chance to talk. There is not a family that could have been more supportive and wonderful. We had such a good time. I know this is the right thing for my baby girl. On Wedneday we signed the adoption papers. It was extreamly difficult, but I feel so much peace about it. I have the chance to see Kylee this week and I am SO excited!!! I can't imagine how much she has grown. I will get tons of pictures. This experiance has expanded my faith in our loving Heavenly Father and the Lord, Jesus Christ, more than any I have experianced thus far. I am so grateful for the blessing this has been in my life. I feel as though Kylee has truly led me in the right direction and I will be eternally grateful. She is my BEST blessing. And now she has the BEST life possible. Thank you to everyone involved!